Everything is so nice and neat. Orderly. It makes sense. There is a time stamp on life. Careers. Love. Be rational. Use reason. One plus one always equals two. We have our rules ready. More like fantasies. Our black and white list that we create envisioning a perfect world with our flawless mate. He can’t leave the toilet seat up. She can’t have kids. He has to have a job with a six figure income. She must cook. Never settle. No compromise. One plus one will always equal two.

Until you meet someone that makes you hear the beating in your ears. Her beauty captivates you. His words make you feel anxiety in the pits of your soul.

Your head says no.

Your heart says yes. Do it. For me. It will feel good. It will make you happy. Fall victim to the intensity.

Your head says no.

Your heart says leap. Welcome Love. No caution. Just live. Say yes.

Your head says no. It’s that simple. No.

Your heart says it’s better to try and know than to always wonder. Life is short. It felt so good last time. 

Kiss him. Marry him. Do it. For me.

Your brain says no. Be rational. Use reason. One plus one will always equal two. It’s that simple.

There are rules to be followed. Or else. There is a reason why so many people choose to live this life. There are always those who deter from the path. And end up unhappy. Don’t be one of them. This is what we are taught. This is what we have been told. This is what we were bred to believe.

So as you can see, there is a war in my world. And nobody ever triumphs. My head spins. I pick up the phone to spill my heart to him. And promptly put it down. Scared to look like a fool.

As much as I try to use my head, my heart sometimes wins. In this imperfect world of ours, one plus one sometimes equals three. So where does that leave me?