Free Write: Blemished
10:25 PM
I am not flawless. You will not ogle me as you scroll down
Instagram while laying on the couch with your hands in your pants. I will not
wear spandex shorts and capture the roundness of my behind for you to see.
There shall be no topless photos. My chest is a piece of art to be displayed. I
will not color my lips with overpriced lipsticks and blow kisses into my smart
phone camera. You will not pretend that those kisses are meant for you.
I will not post pictures in a bikini. There shall be no
camel toe in too small sweat pants or cheap black leggings. I will not load my
face with tons of make up to look like her. Or her. Or her. Straight weaves and long
tresses are just not my thing. I’m a tapered afro kind of girl.
I do not have a flat stomach. I will no longer kill myself
trying to get one. I do not have a tiny waist. Instead I have a roll and
stretch marks where my slim figure used to reside. My breasts do not look
perfect all the time. I have bad hair days. I do not shave sometimes. My nails
go unpolished and unmanicured a very large majority of my life. My teeth are
uneven. I simply do not care. Perfection is not my goal.
But here is that I am. I am fucking sexy. I am soft as you
run your hands over bare my skin in bed. I am a wonderful cook. Making you
breakfast after a night of putting in that work. I am regal. Above the
pettiness of comparisons and put downs. I’m into compliments and self esteem.
Believe that. I am modest. Although I know how to be a dirty girl when
warranted, my goods are not for all to see. I’ll leave that to your
imagination. I am mysterious. Under each layer after silky sweet layer you’ll
find a new part of me. A new depth. A new person to get to know. You will never
entertain boredom. I am me. What you see is what you get. Thick eyebrows. No
relaxer. Little make up, if any. Jeans and a t-shirt. Chucks. Heels on special
occasions. Like when you come home from a late night at work and looking for a
little you and me time. I like those nights.
I am not perfect. I am transparent. What you see is that you
get. I am not the finest wine. I am the sweetest on the tongue. I am not
immaculate. But I am elegant. Graceful. Timeless. I am not flawless. I’m
better. I’m simple. I’m real. I’m me.
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